Days Of Future Past

Merry Christmas

Father, my relationship with you in the first was an inner, personal one, not an intellectual one.
I came into the relationship through your miracle, and through my own will to believe.
Then I began to get an intelligent appreciation and understanding of the wonders of you, and the transformation in my life.

There was a surrender of the will, not a surrender to a persuasive or powerful argument. I had deliberately stepped out, placing my faith in you and in your truth. God, I place no confidence in my own works, but only in you.

Trusting in my own mental understanding becomes a hindrance to complete trust in you. I must be willing to ignore and leave my feelings behind. I must will to believe. But this can never be accomplished without my forceful, determined effort to separate myself from my old ways of looking at things. I must surrender myself completely to you, Father.

It's your son's birthday in 2 days, Father. Your very own beloved son who trusted and obeyed you becuase he knows you are faithful right from the beginning of time to the very end. Like how a son would trust his father who loves him unconditionaly and knows what is best for him; like how Abraham trusted you in your word, and obeyed you when you told him to sacrifice his son Issac. But on both occassions you have given life back to both your son and Issac; preventing Abraham from sacrficing or harming his son.

Father, you had sacrficed you own son, Jesus...for me, that he would die and rise again, so that I may live.

Thank you Father. Thank you for your love. I feel unworthy even when I tell you how much I love you...I have sinned. But it's only because of your love for me that compels me to choose to love you and nobody else. Save me from myself Father, and help me overcome sin and temptation. I know I am righteous in your eyes, and you have considered it good when I say I love you. Thank you Father.

Let Jesus know that I miss him, and I wish him the happiest of all birthdays.

Merry Christmas.

posted by HanQiang @ 9:33 am